what's left for me to say?

2006-07-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

SHIFTED (:

2006-07-09T14:31:00.000+08:00

ALL HAILS GERMANY!

2006-07-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

today's the J1s outing to SAFTI/OCS (officer cadet school) wasnt that bad afterall. tho some claimed twas total boredom, this and that, i think otherwise. dont mention about the bad weather please.

OCS looks pretty new to me and the facilities are great and its really huge. life in there dont seemed bad. maybe the training is a killer. other than that, i think it aint bad staying in there. haha. boys get to be more self disciplined, tidy, macho, fit, and manly. isnt that so good for you guys? :p

so, we were encouraged to take photos. yes we did. plenty of them, which's currently stored in sylvia's cam/marvin's hp/my hp.

school started. its pretty slack. okay, more reflections coming in. bad news. utter disappointment.

sighs. i dont know what to do. lost. dumbfounded. feeling stupid. noone's to blame except myself.
hafta start to work doubly hard. i will. i hope.

sometimes, when i think back. i wished things stayed the way twas few years back. god loves to play a trick on people. sighs. if it didnt happened, i wouldnt be here dreaming for it to be true, which'll never happen. for you know why.

i know i should stop thinking about it. i did stop thinking about it. and let everything come to an end. but, sometimes somewhere i think of you again. like ystd. i wanted to. but i didnt. because i know... ...

the phonecalls i miss. the voice i miss. the messages i miss. and you i miss.
i miss you.

ok shut up.

short-lived happiness.
because twas too good to be true.

what goes around comes around.

what an emo entry. suckers.

2006-07-04T20:10:00.000+08:00

depressed.

~~i gained weight~~.
okay i need to stop indulging. stoooooooooooop. i'm 3498141274917kg away from my ideal weight of <40kg/40kg.

school reopened. 90more days to promo exams? i think. i hafta work hard and town/slack lesser. wont be blogging that often. due to the busy school schedule and stuffs.

goodbye.

2006-06-29T19:39:00.000+08:00

~~SUMMER TEST~~
it's finally over over over! *jumps for joy*
friday saturday sunday monday. 4days of break :D:D:D

booze/pool/town/shop/indulge!

a little headache, sleep deprived, and super fugly heavy eye bags.
be back to update more when i'm in a pink of health!
till then (:

2006-06-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

~~PROCRASTINATE~~

2006-06-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

i'm having a bad headache now.
hangover.
feeling very cranky, grumpy, irritated, annoyed, && mad with myself
summer test in <48hours time. i hvnt finish studying. sucker.
i dont know why i'm feeling so terrible inside.
i dont wanna flunk my test. tho i know the probability is >1.

:(:(:(:(

my life full of mr frownys'.

2006-06-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

my body is aching, my feet is freezing, i think the 4dumplings is stuck in my disgestive system, i just puked, & i'm feeling so cold, giddy, unwell.

serve me right for being sucha greeedy girl.
food binge-r. sucker. gobbled down 4dumplings (2bigones2smallones) at one go.

post-exams depression. awful.

&&sighs.

shopping list for the month
/fcuk tee
/papillio sandals
/roxy necklace

&maybe i'll be a happier girl (:

2006-06-21T16:03:00.000+08:00

stussy ring tee
ripcurl straw tote
tribal accessories
roxy racerback

HAHA / [:

instead of studying, i went town with jiasin & co. for a game of pool and some shopping. badbadbad. towning burns beryl's purse one big hole!

mom dad and brothers are back from shanghai.
laceey undies <3!!
ck one summer!
2 mickeymouse bags (authetic ones :)
denium shorts & pants
2 tops
dior limited ed lipgloss-es
lancome summer ed eye makeup

i didnt expect em' to get me the ck fragrance because dad told me to buy it myself. surprise surprise!

:D:D:D

what can i say?

my family's awesome.

***
my tribal bracelet broke ):
t'was d last piece ):
***

2006-06-19T01:33:00.000+08:00

another sleepless night.
studystudystudy :D
my eraser is missing!
my gc's batteries died!
so suuuay okay.
so, i cant do any maths problems now. (excuses! hahaha)

lets be anorexic.
post-exams depression.

~~glycolysis!~~
~~krebs cycle/citric acid cycle~~
i didnt know krebs cycle is a.k.a citric acid cycle. hahaha! so dumb T__T
i'll be done & over with respiration today!
bbq @ 6pm. de-stress!

2006-06-18T12:36:00.000+08:00

do i look like i care about how much how nice how big how wonderful it's? dont make it sound like a big deal. boast and boast and it just gonna make me dislike you a little bit more. criticism/egoism? whats more?

'it sucks!'

sighs. some people likes to behave in sucha way that i so dont like. okay, maybe sometimes. it irritates me alot. going on and on, on the same issue. arent you sick of it? and telling the whole world about it. do you need me to hold a press conference so that you can easily convey your message across effortlessly? oh fuck off. blame it on my bad mood. bummer.

msn/the internet are distracting me!
manymanymanymore chapters to go.
studying till i go bonkers.
thats my life.

i'm out.

2006-06-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

quizzical/puzzled.

live
laugh
love

well, its so overrated. in not saying how you feel, and in the end watching the chances fade away & wondering whats real?

all had unravelled.

britney's fantasy. a girl's best friend.

dior's l.o.v.e

P/S: i need coughdrops :s

2006-06-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

i need to study.
i've been saying this again and again. but yet, i'm still lazing/slacking around.
i'll study! (:(:(:

rqian is just so nice! (: love her to bits! she actually came my house and bought me plenty of food knowing that i hvnt had any meals. (since tues night) she got me my favourite fooood! tutukuehs, sardine puff, ham&potato bun, grassjelly soyanbean! *beams* so freaking full! nowadays, i've very irregular mealtimes. because i'm lazy to cook/takeaway. as good as saying i'm dieting :D (fats please go away!)

P/S: i'll be a superduper good girl and study hard for summer test. (hopefully)

2006-06-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

i did smth sinful hours ago.
hit the town with dearest js & i planned to just watch her shop but came home handful of bags

~~pazzion pumps~~
~~britney spears' fantasy fragrance~~
~~zara shorts~~
~~m)phosis heels~~
~~topshop singlet~~
~~topshop accesories~~

ck summer fragrance didnt turn up to be as nice as i thot. there were far too much choices. and i ended up with britney's. the lovely design of the bottle with blingbling crystals. (i love!) simply gorgeous & irresistable!

i'll, i should stop spending so much
smacks!

2006-06-13T15:42:00.000+08:00

DXO was alright..
a small pathetic club, i would say.
but i still had fun..

get down to books and town later.

rebirth@m.o.s?
i shall be staying on that night to mug.

oh, my life's so sad ):

2006-06-11T19:03:00.000+08:00

eat
sleep
shop

~~levis pattyanne slim~~
~~mng belt~~
~~two mng babydoll tops~~
~~hollister striped tee~~
~~babyjack's ring tee~~

c'est la vie! (:(:(:

i miss...

2006-06-07T00:21:00.000+08:00

today me, esther, rqian met up together finally to indulge! heh.. did some window shopping. oh i love the corset & striped top @ topshop. smth so hilarious happened in the fitting room. laughs! (its our big big secret) we went off to dine@gelare. on my way, i went to buy tutu-kueh (my favourite favourite kueh!) i'd the frozen chocolate drink + the turkey breast+eggmayofillings sandwich. ♥ ♥ ♥ d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s! and guess what. we didnt had any waffle+icecream. its waffleday@gelare! aftermath we wanted to singk but dropped the idea. so we went clarke quay instead to drink! long island tea+jollyshandy. took plenty plenty plenty of photos - 113451KB.

i'm tired.

the connection just went haywired when the 113451KB file is in the midst of transfer.
pissed!

photo blog next.
watch this space!

2006-06-04T23:12:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling fat..
i'd been food- binging! after not eating for 24h. i actually felt hungry & had regular meals for once! (:

morning: macdonald's breakfast
afternoon: chicken rice + grassjelly drink @ beach road
evening: gelare's waffle + icecream, durian puff takeaways + muffins from ahjew's mom

oh. its sinful! so i've decided to eat lesser or starve tmr. otherwise you'll see me growing sideways pretty soon.. ):

photo blog!

puma shorts for myself/nike tee for gary!

winniethepoohhankies(myself)/tee for gary two.

jiasin&me!
oh, we love to act cute. pardon us.

<3.

2006-06-03T13:30:00.000+08:00

boredom kills.

i've totally no mood for studying. summer test summer test. *sulks* and sadly, i'm not joining my family to shanghai for hols. sighs.. i miss them truckloads. brother'll be back from uk in a week's time (for his so-long summer hols or smth), with losta pretty stuffs for me. i cant wait! (for the gifts only) *laughs*

dad just called to ask for the size of my undies. why? (wonder why didnt mom called instead?! damn embarrassing! lol) because he, mom and gary are off to thailand now. or have they reached? i think thailand's undies dirt cheap. its so unfair. i'm stuck at 'house' (its not home. it doesnt feels like. it isnt. it's occupied by some loathsome beings) long sucky story.

GSS is bad. everyone is like grabbing this and that. shop like there's no tmr. insanity. and shops are in total mess. endless flow of people. i dont like.

down with a sorethroat, giddyspells and feeling feverish..
shopping does wonders. anyone?

2006-05-31T18:22:00.000+08:00

my first virgin clubbing @ m.o.s tgt with my dearest (jill), kevin & clique.

the queue was freaking long. but somehow i got in without queueing :p was there pretty early like 7+, when the party starts only at 11pm. hanged around, bored bored bored. observing & saw interesting things.. pretty much shameless men at the dancefloor :s

got to make friends with few of the people like andrea, michelle, fanny, pokiat, triston, clarence. nice people (:

got home in the morning, dead beat. 5hours of sleep and i was off to school.

my eyebags can never be better..
...
..
.
ohh, it sucks.

some pictures taken.

ah jew & me!

shagged.

look what're they doing! *HAHA*

ADIEUS!

2006-05-30T09:18:00.000+08:00

ystd night was seriously bad. i was so pissed off, frustrated, annoyed, and so mad. this and that. nothing glamorous to be mentioned. sighs.

and its not worth getting peeved over such people..
i miss my parents ):
i wish...

forget it.

school later, ciaos!

mini and me (:(:(:

(:(:(:

2006-05-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

i love love love shopping! & sales!

♥ bebe rhinestone/lacey high waist hoodie
♥ bebe logo racerback
♥ bebe coinpurse

bebe is having storewide sales (15%)! sucha waste if you dont buy alright..
everywhere is so packed & i hate it. people squeezing and bumping onto you and your bags. @$%#!!

i'm broke, but happy :D

i want those:
ripcurl's clutch
roxy's tee
prettyfit's strappy flats
junkfood tee
zara's denium skirt & jeans
zara's shorts
fcuk's racerback

poisedon, MI3, over the hedge, i wanna watch!

oh, school tmr. *pouts*

2006-05-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

hols has commenced! (:
yet i hafta go back to school for the whole of the 1st week.
summer test is coming..

i need to take a breather.

i know its silly, i know its dumb.
everything'll be ok soon, perhaps..

last night, i dreamt of you again...
):

i cant to go shopping tomorroow :D

2006-05-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

finally, the eye infection is gone :) never ever use renu solution please.

ystd was jiasin's birthday! gave her a surprise at her school. and the celebration was great isnt it? everyone there were lovely.. (despite me not knowing majority of them) cheers!

hols commence, yet i hafta go back to school for extra lessons. bummer.

'whisper sweet nothings..'

feeling rather moody. its very not me..

P/S: salesalesalesalesales! its time for shopping sprees!

2006-05-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIASIN :D:D:D

2006-05-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

done & over with gp + chinese (yay!)

my left eye has yet to recover. it stings badly sometimes, and it gets so red sometimes. i dunno what the hell is wrong with it. i hafta wear the ugly looking specs of mine to school. loathsome. i wore it today and my classmates had a good laugh.

'THEY'RE SO MEAN'

went to marina square bcos rqian insist that she must get the top@ZARA. ridiculous lah. haha. then dined@THAIEXPRESS. i must say the food taste heavenly. (not exaggerated ok) it boost your appetite and the sevice is good. a must-try!

soft shell crab
tomyam seafood glass noodles
pineapple rice

YUM!

P/S: ck summer fragrance out in town now (i cant wait to get myself one/rather someone get it for me please?)

♥ ♥ ♥

2006-05-23T20:09:00.001+08:00

argh, its seriously friggin painful... (my left eye)
skipped school today and went to see the doctor. alone..
yes, eye infection aka conjunctivitis?
the eyedrop doesnt helps and i dont dare to apply the ointment to my eye. it looks like it'll make my eye go blind. i'm afraid that smth bad'll happen to my eye.. ):

tmr's summer test.. everything's so bad.

wishful thinking of mine.

2006-05-23T00:38:00.000+08:00

my left eye is giving me problems again.. it's so painful & sore & red ):
teared..
i hope it'll be back to normal tmr. otherwise i hafta consult a doctor, alone... eww.
today school was pretty relaxing. wasnt in the mood for anything.. chem spa was seriously bad. &&& i forgot to bring my file (which contains all the doc + worksheets + tutorials + lectures = v.impt stuffs lah) scatter-brained...
we (marvin,weejie,jill,mich,ahjoy,jasmine,xying,myself) ate + camwhored + talksomuchnonsense in socrates (the most loveliest room in libraria & fortunately with curtains still attached). we're so not supposed to be doing that. HAHA.
i've tonnes of photos to be uploaded. (thanksomuchmarvin!)

the photos are in a mess. i'm lazy to sort it out neatly and i dislike blogspot :s

back to mathematical induction (boring!)

another sleepless night...

2006-05-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

i hate emo songs :(
i hate it when people take advantages of me. suckas.
i'd been sleeping from ystd 0100 till today 1600 T__T
i feel like sleeping again.. ;s

its gonna be hectic week before holidays commence.

2006-05-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

entry burnt.

i know, it's unlikely.
i ought to be contented.

2006-05-18T02:08:00.000+08:00

2006-05-17T02:05:00.000+08:00

hah. look at the time now. 0203 and i'm so awake.

my body dont feel good.
ache and pain and ache and pain ;s
i need to be decaffeinated.
oh haywired.

2006-05-16T19:28:00.000+08:00

i think i'm v.scatterbrained.
guess what i did in the morning?
I. i was applying sunscreen (supposingly), i sensed that smth is wrong with it so i took a close look and realised its... 'DEEP CLEANSER' omg. i was in a switched-off mode. (its morning 0710?) & i'm always rushing to school. thou its 2bus-stops away.
II. i screwed up my student profiling questionaire. number (1) is not 'always'. its 'never'. anyway, i hardly have the number (1) & (4) in it. so it doesnt makes a difference? i didnt bother going back to tell the teacher-in-charge because i dont want to make a mockery out of myself (ppl'll like stare at me and think why's this girl doing it again? so dumb. ewwww) and i dont like to do uninteresting things again and i hafta walk a hundred miles to reach m1-1.

another week till term 2 ends. (~~holidays)~~

i am silly. (whyishistoryrepeatingitselfagain?)
i'd come to believe that, girls should remain reserved.
in certain things esp.

i tried, i said, i'd done
whats left for me to say?

2006-05-15T20:35:00.000+08:00

i feel so nuts.
whats wrong with me today.
i get pissed off over the slighest thing/comment made
i am not happy
homework is pilling up like bermuda triangle
my grades can never get worst like now
i think i ought to stop procrastinating
my bad tans still persist
insomnia attacked = giddy spells
starve&binge&starve&binge = gastritis
i need someone to talk to badly (you)
sighs.
):

and.. i just got hold of the oac photos.
i look terrible (as always)
and i wonder why mdm yee takes such interesting comical awful looking photos of us.
HMM.

♥ OAC I. 0611G

2006-05-14T13:41:00.000+08:00

I Think Of You (Tata Young)

When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused
When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do

[Chorus]

Is think of you
I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you
Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe
Cause there's nothing I can't bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won't break
Through it all I'll make it through
Cause all I have to do

[Chorus]

And when I think I'm all alone
I can't see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear

[Chorus]

For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you

2006-05-11T01:27:00.000+08:00

again, insomnia.

alot of things running thru my mind.
i wished i knew whats going on.